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Has been an interesting day. I am unable to sleep and hence i choose the blog to empty my rambling thoughts. My brain keeps talking to me. And keeps giving cues on incidents that took place about 5 hours ago. It was a simple confrontation made by a client who felt cheated, (Valid- yet cannot be justified, or rather had her Internet cut due to non payment of dues as was previously assured. Or probably found the best way out of a debt is to simply use the broom stick and start rattling off till one can see the dust fill the air. Call it dirty then) I had a simple thought in my mind. How do i help this person clear off large sum that has plagued her business. All the opportunities that she had to forfeit. All the non-materialized investments. (All of which now I think was a fabricated story recited to everyone, the role of a victim being excellently enacted) My intention was to give her well known brand name a stronger customer presence and relationship. All i had placed was a simple non fancy product that would help her connect customers more accurately. Letting the pictures do the talking for her instead. Sure it was to take time to teach, explain the details. Sure I knew i had to help her as no body around her would really pitch in. But the product has proved how powerful it is. There are case studies of successful stories. But i also had never seen someone stoop so low, well a certain Mr.”Being Human” threw 4 Credit Cards at me to show how easy it is to get credit cards in Nepal. What was the statement, “ill show you my blazing guns”?. Well Mr “Being Human” you may have all the connections in town flashing it around to bully. All the connections that I had was my Head Attached to my Shoulder and My Feet on the Ground, nothing superficial. Further, at point blank he fires a Colt that screams,cheater, no per-assessment nor post; How does he know I cheated. Has he walked in my shoes before, I have walked in his, during my stint as a Brand Manager, still i did not find it worth fiddling for accolades. Nevertheless the adventurous day has been an interesting experience. 1) Women and Technology don’t go hand in hand, especially poisonous when they are surrounded by debts. 2) Men will always have a knack for becoming a Knight in Shining Armour. Age of the woman doesn’t matter, aesthetics does it all. And the woman’s statement really made it, she said, no body has heard of me, nor referred me nor seen me, pointing out to my non background influences and the infamous product. Insult? Well hell no, I am a self made- Finally after days , and years of walking alone, earing my own rags and riches. I still have non to claim a fame or fortune. Yet that statement made it home. “Clearly, I have earned the title – I Self Made Myself”

At the end of 2017 As I evaluate the things that i have achieved, i realize that i have not really achieved anything. I am about to restart everything or it seems I am where I was at the end of 2016. Here are what happened: After i lost the job, the entire December has been frantic search for survival. This December is the same. No Shave November continues. Daily income = 0. Number of ventures= Jack of all Master of Non. Number of employees= Self Employers instead hiring me Number of Clients= Who say Why Pay Quality of PR earned= Restaurant Owners who don’t want me standing next to them. Software Developers, who ignore my necessities Bankers, I need to save face from Educator, who have more agenda on plate then the proposal forwarded. Hardware Vendors, too small a business offers, so ignore. Potential Investors= Disappeared Ohh a girlfriend…. Did i have one? Travel= Non Cash at hand= 25/- MBA= Same Backlogs, Same Assignments, Same Thesis pending. 2017 only has seen a lot of my hair falls. Pressure to get hitched pennyless. 2018…. To be continued. PS to be honest, if was on the track, i was supposed to be in an SUV but i prefer cycling. I feel healthy tho tired all day. Stinky and Sweaty but enthusiastic and energetic. Frugal like Jeff Bezos(startup) but Dirty one set of pant and Shirt all day. Tho i eat a lot of Pizza. Plus i cant even pay my ADSL and Phone bills or have the cycle repaired. And SUV :/ Come to think of it, its been the same all through the life. Cannot remember the child hood but +2, Grads all looked the same. Nothing much has really improved in the lifestyle choices. Not complaining. Snag snag crash snag snag crash But work,   All the while as I complain, Here is what pops up on my screen. And then this video: